The following playlist are songs that I and others feel relate to what is like to have Borderline Personality Disorder & how those afflicted with this illness more often than not feel about themselves and others. Thanks to all those that contributed their suggestions for this list it is really appreciated.
Sunday 25 September 2016
Poem - Borderline
I was once a happy, innocent little
boy,
but now I'm broken and I don't know
why.
All my pain buried deep down inside,
is it any wonder I want to curl up and
die.
Slithers of glass shredding my soul,
craving warmth but feeling only cold.
Knowing how to behave,
but subject to a chaotic emotional
rage.
Who am I because I don't know?
Words spoken in haste,
leaving friendships in a tattered
waste.
Wanting to be accepted I push you away,
why would you want to stay?
Wanting beauty but feeling pain,
even breathing is an awkward strain.
Damaged, reject, pariah,
psycho,
many more names adorn my soul,
I just want to be loved and made whole.
Why has love forsaken me?
Why can't I be set free?
Am I not beautiful?
I am a person after all.
Where is the the love that I deserve?
Instead a meal of vile iniquity I'm
served.
Trapped in the miry clay,
please help me I don't want to stay.
Will I come to my end with despair my
only friend.
Constantly battling the war inside,
God help me because I don't want to die.
I long for a place to call home,
but instead I suffer alone.
Where is the promise of hope?
Am I just a cruel joke?
Darkness comes and envelopes me,
demons screaming to break free.
A war inside my mind,
yet peace and happiness are all I want
to find.
Please deliver me from all this strife,
before the darkness overtakes me and I
take my life.
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